I’m not terribly unhealthy, but I’m a far cry from where I know I can be. I am finally ready to take this seriously. Before today, I’ve been scared of trying, with just the thought of making my goals publicly known giving me anxiety. That anxiety always morphed itself into fear and avoidance of healthy habits.
Silly, I know.
I have found it increasingly more obvious that I am unhappy. My weight makes me feel unhealthy, I'm always sore, my back pains and spasms have worsened over the months, and my self-esteem has fallen to an alarmingly low level. I've noticed myself socially retracting, lashing out at the wrong people; I'm losing focus on what's actually important, and generally making my life feel more complicated than truly it needs to be. This, clearly, needs to change. Part of that begins with my health.
I'm roughly 25lbs from what's considered healthy for my height, but I don’t want to focus exclusively on weight loss. It can become an unhealthy obsession. I’m looking for an overall well-being and balance in my life. I hope to include my progress, healthy recipes I have come to love, and random things I find applicable!
I'm not sure if blogging is a good idea at this point, but if I sit here I will start to over-think the situation, and well...then it will never get posted. Part of me wonders if I'm psyching myself up for failure, once again. I need to drive that thought of failure from my mind.
I found a quote that I've become fond of, and my first goal is to say it to myself daily. In fact, it’s been written on a large piece of poster board and taped to the inside of my bedroom door, so I am forced to see it each and every morning.
"Our greatest weakness lies in giving up. The most certain way to succeed is always to try just one more time." -Thomas A. Edison
Yoga tonight! First om in the right direction! :)
ReplyDeleteHey Shannon, I'm in love with this idea, and you for being brazen enough to share something so personal with so many people. I understand where you are, and wish you the best. When i started college I was at 165 ish... already overweight. And now I would give anything to be at that again. I got a gym membership last month, and am trying to make a change in my life. Within the last year, I've seen my mom's health decline a lot, and I want to do as much as I can to be healthy still at her age. So, I wish you so many good things, and look forward to reading what you have to say.
ReplyDelete<3 April W.